Useless

I ran and grabbed a seat
Just to watch the sun goes down
I repeat all over again
To make sure you are sinking well with the sun
But it never happened

Description

If they ask me about love, I'll say your name. Because that's the best description of love that I know.

The Routine

Watching the sun goes down, every single day
Refuse the fact that it'll be hanging on the sky tomorrow.
The fact, when the sun is set
The memories of us is raised.

Dingin

Precious presence

Lifetime Prayers

Every single night I pray for each of us to be someone better.
No. To be someone who we really are.
The act to following the prayers is committed to have no commitment.
Whether the feeling will change or not, it hasn't become the truth.
The pure truth for this time is the feeling between us itself.
That's the only truth I've believed.

If to be someone who we really are, contains the existence of both of us, that would be perfect.
If it isn't, that's okay, because I've had you, once in my life.
It can't be replaced by anything.
The memories of us will remain the same.

~~ss

Lifetime prayers

Dream from The Heart

Where all the dreams are come from? If it's come from your deepest heart, keep the light of yours, don't ever let it die in the darkness of your heart.
No dream comes from outside stand so long, because it's already made. You just copy it. The track has made, and many people walk that path. There is a chance to be disappointed by the unpredictable things in this path. Road might be broken caused by many people walk on. The Scenery might be not as beautiful as you imagined. The disappointment caused by the expectations you've made to wrap your dream.

Look inside your heart, there'll be a pure love that leads to the creation of dreams. Pick one, focus on it and let it set the target. Because your dream knew how to find a way to become true, as long as you don't make any expectation for your self.
Expect less is different with target less. Target comes from the dream it selves. Expectation comes from your external life.

But, the dream will always do good for the world. It won't be a selfish and arrogant. Because the dream is a fruit of the tree of love, which is feed every creatures of the universe.

~ss
dream dream dream

the air

I always wondering the warmth of your back

to be very close with you is just only to your back

If only I brave enough to hug your back

there's a lot of thing that i would like to say to you 

things about you

how much you mean to me

how much you did affect me

I'm not brave enough to look into your eyes

and say those things

my fear is bigger 

though I know 

I couldn't ever have you

still I don't wanna lose you

sometimes I wonder what are you

are you an angel 

who always keep the distance but guarding me perfectly

cover up when things go wrong 

are you the air that I breathe?

who always around to keep me alive

run in my blood in every seconds

although I couldn't see you

hey, .. (I couldn't ever give you a nickname)

hey, there'll be a day 

when the universe conspires to make a time and kinda circumstance

meeting you and me in a perfect place and perfect-what-ever

gives me the courage to be brave and ready to say all the things

at that time

I will look into your eyes

risking everything we have, we've build

to be pulled closer to you

or to be pushed away

I always wish you get the best in everything

if I couldn't be one of it

I'll be okay 

Polite Lover

I said don't come
don't come today
cause I've been busy and tired
but you don't understand

you wait at the door
when I come home with luggage
I said why are you here
but I don't understand

I bought you a slice of cheese cake
you enjoyed it alone
trying to have some rest
but you came up and crush down my wall

it was dark and silent
you hug me in and shut my mouth
nice and even with yours
but your phone's ringing

your girlfriend's calling
you stare at me and give me that face
I said why don't you pick it up
but you just smile and hug me again

you said it doesn't matter
rub your hand on my cheek
make out like the first time
but your girlfriend doesn't even understand

our love is unbeatable
with all the thing we've been through
couldn't be replaced by her name and beauty
but the world seemed don't understand

that you cover it up with lies
over and over again

~ss
14dec13
why don't you pick up her phone, honey

Unseen

It's raining outside.
And tons of memories of you and I come out and cherished by the pouring rain.
There's won't be a rain that heavy enough to wash it away.
The memories of you and I.
The unseen love that will always live.
Between every drop of the rain.
We were as close as two falling drops to the ground.
Became one and disappeared.
But the love will still remain the same. Transformed into flowers and everything.
And it's still beautiful.
As beautiful as an idea of you and I.

Scattered Cloud

I wanna see you come up
beyond the sunrise
at the moment
I barely don't know who I am

I wanna catch you
as a dew
soft morning dew
like the soil can ever holds you

I never expected to be love in return
nor to be this hurt
like a scattered cloud turns into rain
my love has been paid with pain

no, I didn't cry
Is there any drop left?
you knew that I will always try
but I'm the one who'll be left

10Aug.in the very morning