Let it Swing

Earlier this morning, I had a chitchat with my best friend. It was simply started with my plan to visit her. But, ended with significant value that has been lived within me.

And here's the story..

We spent new year's eve in Amed, East Bali. It was kind of reunion of four of us. We went to Rinjani two years ago. They didn't know each other previously. It was a wonderful journey that I've ever experienced. Well, we'll get in there later. After a year and a half we hadn't met as a team, we decided to spend new year's eve together. It was a blast.

In the first morning of 2015, after we had a breakfast, we decided to go to a chocolate factory nearby. Charlie's Chocolate Factory. The hut is authentic. It's like a high wooden hobit's house faced to the sea with coconut trees surrounding. Moreover, the tree swing in front of the shore was ravishing. I couldn't resist.

We were so excited to swing. The swing was attached to tall coconut trees on a slope area. To take the swing we have to take steps to be standing on board and ask someone else to pull the swing to the board. When I was standing on that board, watching my friends pull it towards me, I felt terrified.

I put the swing behind my back, and whenever I set my feet of the board I'll be automatically swinging. My legs were shaking. Oh my God. My friends were shouting "Just swing! Let it swing! You can do it!" But, seriously, it was pretty high and there was no safety equipment. I might fall to the ground or accidentally slipped and hit the tree or even worse thrown to the sea.

I closed my eyes and I lifted my feet off the board.

I swung swiftly with my eyes closed. I was thinking, I just started my very first day of the year with smothering moment. What was I thinking. After the first swing, I started to scream and laugh. Then I begun to promise to myself about how I will go through this year, about how I will envisage my dream, my life.

The only thing that will make fall to the ground is taking my hands off my dream. The first time I saw my dream I was so enthusiast until I begin to touch it, until I risked everything to let me swing and experience it. Fears is like a monster that gnaw you from the inside. But, it didn't happen. The only thing I have to do is to be doubtless. The universe won't make the swing stuck in the middle, it'll swing through until it stopped by gravity. Yes, it might be breathtaking. Yes, the fears are still there. Yes, I have to risk my life and there's no safety gear, baby. No one will guarantee anything. But, I have to let it swing. 

And after that, I didn't own my dream. The dream owns me, and I live it up.

~sekarsarkara
17.09.15

Dream from The Heart

Where all the dreams are come from? If it's come from your deepest heart, keep the light of yours, don't ever let it die in the darkness of your heart.
No dream comes from outside stand so long, because it's already made. You just copy it. The track has made, and many people walk that path. There is a chance to be disappointed by the unpredictable things in this path. Road might be broken caused by many people walk on. The Scenery might be not as beautiful as you imagined. The disappointment caused by the expectations you've made to wrap your dream.

Look inside your heart, there'll be a pure love that leads to the creation of dreams. Pick one, focus on it and let it set the target. Because your dream knew how to find a way to become true, as long as you don't make any expectation for your self.
Expect less is different with target less. Target comes from the dream it selves. Expectation comes from your external life.

But, the dream will always do good for the world. It won't be a selfish and arrogant. Because the dream is a fruit of the tree of love, which is feed every creatures of the universe.

~ss
dream dream dream

Homeless Dreamer

You may find me in dirty clothes
Homeless and cloudy
My hands maybe rough and ugly
There will wound in my arms
Bruises in my legs
Dust all over my hair
But on my own two feet I will always stand

You may not find any diamonds on my neck
Crown on my head
But my chin will always up
My eyes will always open
All you can take from me is just my smile
Which would never disappear

I may leave my friends and family
My love and society
But I would never leave me

Collecting the obstacles across my way
Like the pebbles and rocks  on the street
I won't kick them and walk away
I will stack the big rocks as my stairs to my dream
Stride the useless pebbles
And not overuse my energy

At the end I will sit on the peak of obstacles I've been through
Enjoy my time reaching my dream
Feel the wind on my cheeks because I'm at the top of my destiny

By the time I will look down
And see you so tiny
In your neat look
Clean clothes and shoes
Holding on your crown and glory
Look up at me and wishing for a pair of wings to reach your dream
Which would never grow on your back